What I needed???
"If I Perish, I Perish"Back to God's sense of humor: After school today I was blog surfing and found an article about Queen Esther and her quote in Esther 4:6.
Everything Moms.
Thinking about it did indeed soothe me. But I'm already soothed. Why didn't I find it yesterday??? Probably because I would have screamed back at God, "But that's the point!! I don't want to perish."
Now, when my crisis of anxiety is over, I see. I understand. It's my false sense of control. Did it really matter when I got the news??? Not really. If I perish, I perish. Aaaah! The irony! I'm willing to give the control back to God when the danger is over.
Forgive me God!! I know I do not control the universe; you do!
Pastor Phylis
Everything Moms.
Thinking about it did indeed soothe me. But I'm already soothed. Why didn't I find it yesterday??? Probably because I would have screamed back at God, "But that's the point!! I don't want to perish."
Now, when my crisis of anxiety is over, I see. I understand. It's my false sense of control. Did it really matter when I got the news??? Not really. If I perish, I perish. Aaaah! The irony! I'm willing to give the control back to God when the danger is over.
Forgive me God!! I know I do not control the universe; you do!
Pastor Phylis
